Hi Everyone! Today’s blog is going to be all about me being different or not! (also sorry I haven’t uploaded in like a week! x)
So, first of all, personally I myself think that I am different. I dont look different (minus the huge blue walker) I dont talk different, I just walk different. Also I do things different and I often feel different too. (that was a lot of the word different LOL) sometimes its the little things like I go up the STAIRS different! Whilst “normal” people go up the stairs, I sometimes CRAWL up the stairs! Why do I do that? because it is easier for me. My balance can be bad and sometimes people who I live with (not naming names LINCOLN) rush past me so its safer, at school I get the lift its safer, When I was little, I used to SLIDE down the stairs! I am starting to walk up but very slowly its even in my physio plan.
Another Example is putting my shoes and splints on. You might think putting shoes on is easy… but not if you have splints! My mum has to do it for me cause it’s just too hard, even with a shoe horn! when I wear splints I have to buy shoes that are 2X bigger than my normal shoe size, I know how to put my splints on, even tho it took me 12 years to do it, but when I try to put my shoes on, it’s so difficult! I hope I don’t wear splints when I am older because when I have them on, I just possibly can’t put any shoes on! Also I cant wear lovely girly shoes or strappy sandles and really nice trainers like my friends they always have to be a certain kind to fit over my splints. When I wear skirts or dresses everyone can see my splints and I know they dont make me ugly and I should be proud but untill you have worn them all your life you wont understand.
Another “glorious” Example, taking. a. bath. In my opinion, taking a bath isn’t just difficult for me, but for my mum as well. The reason behind that is because she has to BATH ME. I know… embarassing! And by the word bath me, I actually mean it! She has to wash my hair and that! I want to be able to bath myself soon because, I’m not a baby anymore! And I also want to give her a rest from doing it for me! I cant explain how much I hate this its very hard for me to wash my own hair because of my co-ordination, We have tried don’t get me wrong it’s just too difficult! Obviosuly when im older I will do it but it will take time practising.
Another Example is playing out. Don’t get me wrong, I love to play out with my friends, even if they are younger than me! But there are times when I feel left out. Like sometimes my friends bring their bikes or hoverboard or anything people can ride, they speed off leaving me to “run” after them! They do tell me that they will go slow for me, and sometimes they do! But when they do I feel like they don’t want to go slow with me and that they want to speed off together. Which I completley understand I would if I could use them, But when I have to run, I get really tired and I just need to sit down a lot cause I feel like most of my energy has been wasted by running after them. Alot of my friends go shopping or hang out together, I dont, its not that im not allowed its because they never ask me, maybe its because I have my huge walker, kids are all about being cool maybe they dont think im cool with my walker, I dont know…..
Another one is doing PE. I haven’t done PE since before my operation, but when I did, it was kinda different. Not as different as all the other examples I wrote, but whenever we play a game to do with throwing and catching, no one passes me the ball. (I feel like I have told you this story before… oh well!) And if the people who want to be FAIR pass me the ball, I might as well have it in my hands for 2 seconds throughout the entire game! It’s just SO boring just standing there! maybe its not about being different maybe its about the way people think, honestly tho people with disabilities get treated very very differently.
Another one is, going for days out as a familly together. I cant go and run like my siblings everything I do has to have much more thought about it, going to the toilet, going down steps, crossing the road, everything is a little bit more harder fro me I guess you can say that have more freedom and dont have to think twice about certain things. I rememeber for my 12th birthday me, Emily, my mum and my dad went to Alton Towers! (I even went on a upside down ride, even though I hate them!) and I had to use a wheelchair for the day. (But that was a bit good for me cause we could get first in line cause of it lol….we have to have some benfits from being disabled right??) Even though I was in a wheelchair throughout the day, it was still so much fun going on all the amazing rides! I managed to go on ALMOST all of them, except from… the Smiler! Gulp! I’m just shuddering just thinking about how many loops it had! If I went on it, Im positve I would of been sick!
Enough with the examples, now I am going to talk about if PEOPLE treat me different…..The truth is, not really! When I am sitting on a table with my friends, they just treat me like any normal person! It makes me so happy when people don’t speak to me like I am a baby and include me in normal teenage things, sometimes people walk past me and go awww….why awww?? my whole life doesnt have to be about Cerebral Palsy I wish it was like that every day. What im trying to say is everything I do is done differently than you most things are harder, take twice as long, so I suppose I am different in that way.
My message to people about treating people different is that being different or being weird is just being yourself! People sometimes tell me that I am weird and I say “thanks! Being weird or different is being myself!” And some people say that there are a lot of different types of normal people, and being different and crazy and weird is being MY normal! Its ok to be different if we were all the same it would be boring!!
I hope you enjoyed my blog! Remember to be yourself! Love you all! Bye!
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